Sitting on the side-lines
cheering less and less
Disconnected voices
never sensing my distress.
Benched by circumstance
not an inability to play
Poverty of opportunity
the price I’m forced to pay.
How do I stay connected,
when I’m stuck within these walls?
I still turn up to training,
hoping my time has yet to come.
but the team fails to see
the shadow I’ve become.
The alarm bell is ringing
the side-lines call again,
but I’ve decided to stay at home
reconnect with lost friends…
Will they notice my disconnection,
or the space upon the bench?
I shower and prepare myself
for this meeting of minds
No longer care about connecting
with my team-mates who went blind.
I check my reflection in the mirror
to check I’m ready to go
then I count out the tablets
before I change my mind to no.
Did we win today I wonder,
as the final whistle blows…
National Suicide Prevention Week 2019
If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, advice and help can be found here.
http://www.nspa.org.uk
https://www.nhs.uk/conditions/suicide/
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