You’d never have dared
If I hadn’t been on my knees
If I wasn’t already broken
You wouldn’t have the guts
To look me in the eye
As you played with your fly
You wouldn’t dare approach
a woman like me normally
but when my carcass
was weak, you swooped
in like a vulture, dragging
me to the depths of hell.
Where you reside
and then in shame
I hid too.
Using your perceived
position of power,
to prey, to pounce, to violate
my shattered mind
With your lurid intentions
Framed as banter, patter,
Words, just words
but words, that ripped
more flesh from my bones
traumatising my soul
While I was experiencing
grief for the loss
of the woman I was
for this stranger
I didn’t know yet
She was my best friend
The only one who knew
everything, all the shadows
All the light, all the joy,
All the pain, all the love,
All the stories written
along the alphabetic
rollercoaster of my life.
I was still enduring,
battling through,
Learning my strength,
Rebuilding myself
Writing a new chapter
In the book of my life
Getting to know who this
New me was going to be
To adjust my mind
My heart, my soul,
My body burned
with unseen flames
My head exploding
with unheard screams
My heart still cradling.
shattered dreams
You were given a butterfly
To hold, to be gentle with
And your role demanded
You take care of it,
And instead, you crushed
A butterfly’s wings
So fragile, so delicate,
so light and in it’s place
rose a dragon,
forged in fire
yet unconsumed
by its power
She rose from the dust,
Flying, stronger, wiser
than ever before
So if you think
for one minute more
I will carry your shame
You are wrong
I am crying my last tear
As I write this
Testament of truth
to the woman I am
and the scars I carry
A woman strong enough
to endure, to grow, to learn
who loves so deeply
that loss and pain
brings her to her knees
and with every fall, she rises
Over and over again
To love some more
and cry too
but never again
over you.
.#WritingforFreedom #emotionalhealthmatters #writeyourownstory #LetitGo #Thisisme #iambrave #MeToo #Shame #Notminetocarry
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