No-one understands it, they all think I’ve gone mad.
Stuck in this crazy situation that can only be described as bad
It’s a very controlling relationship that subtlety rules my life.
When it goes into over-drive, it causes me much strife.
It chipped away slowly, making me doubt myself.
Took me a wee while to notice, I now reside in hell.
Can’t go out my legs won’t stop shaking,
You’ve probably noticed my voice is quaking
I look like an alkie, with the DT’s
Or a junkie that’s been brought to her knees.
Down in the dumps, brain fog clouds my head.
Even made me ponder if I’d be better dead.
Weight’s falling of me, I’m a shadow of myself
Maybe I’ll just fade away for my final farewell
My feet get so itchy as I try to walk away,
Energy non-existent, need to wait another day.
It’s not just my feet, my legs and back too.
Can’t get to sleep, no wonder I’m so blue.
Just scratching the surface, skimming the shore.
As I scream louder and louder, I can’t take anymore
No longer got it in me to even look at a Facebook page,
It’s just not worth dealing with the internal rage.
I’m as up and down as our Highland landscape,
Too many days where I want to escape
Trembling inside, here we go again.
The volcano’s exploding, will it ever end?
All control lost now, as I keep tumbling down.
My smile gone, now replaced with a frown.
A tiny butterfly trying to break through its cocoon
A little butterfly tuned to the cycles of the moon.
The wings begin to flap and my whole world is affected.
Emotional upheaval with this thyroid that is infected.
This hopefully explains a little of why I’ve not been blogging very much lately. I hope to be back soon but couldn’t let National Poetry Day pass without sharing something with my friends. Both overactive and underactive thyroid conditions cause a lot of problems for the person affected but also for their friends and family so I’ve added some links that I’ve found particularly useful for anyone who wishes to know more. I’ve also added the link to something I wrote last year for National Poetry Day. Big massive thanks to all the supporters of my blog who’ve been sharing while I’ve not been around, really appreciate your support. Love and blessings, Rashelle